Forward

This is the beginning of what I hope will become a long succession of posts. In this blog will be personal stories of being infertile and reactions from people about my life as a married woman with no children.

Before I get to all the details of what this book is all about I feel it important to share with you all about the love of my life, Eric, and how are journey began.

In the summer of 1999 I was determined not to date after a long line of heartaches. I had just gone through a painful previous engagement and was in the midst of allowing myself to fully rely on God for direction. I said the famous words "God, I'm not dating. I'm going to stay right here and you are going to have to bring the man to me." Little did I know that at the same time I was praying this my future husband was having his own journey. He was praying and asking the Lord for a wife, for someone to be his companion.

Not long after this declaration I spotted a man in the local mall. He was working at a jewelry store. I told a friend that I thought he was pleasing to my eyes and the rest is history. I sent in several church family members to investigate his character and when the final approval was in I made my move. After six months of investigation I asked him out.

That night we talked until 3:30 am. Eric asked to hold my hand and at the instant he put his hand in mine I knew that he was the one that God was calling me to be with forever. On our second date Eric said that he loved me and that if everything was as it was now that in three months time he would ask me Father for my hand in marriage. We were engaged on November 25th, 1999 and on April 15th, 2000 we were married.

Eric and I knew that we wanted children from the start. We began trying for children as every newlywed couple does. It wasn't until a few months past that we recognized that something wasn't right.

God does amazing works through those who believe. In the next few chapters your will learn more about my husband and me. You will follow our journey and hopefully the peace we have found knowing that our lives and future are in God's capable hands.