Hello Dear Friends,
This post comes at a time of deep reflection. I am often asked what inspires you to hold out hope that God has a child for you. The answer isn't always what other expect. To be completely honest, it is shear determination of faith.
I trust God that he knows the course of my life. He is the best compass that I can possibly use. He know what I need when I need it. He knows how to comfort me when life seems unfair and unpredictable. There is no greater relief for me than saying out loud "Lord, I give you my heart, I give you my soul, I love for you alone. Direct my path today and help me know what I need to get through my day."
Recently I have had bouts of feeling sorry for myself. My "weepy" days as I call them. On days like that I sit down and have my cry out with God. I ask why he has chosen me for this path. Why He thinks I can do this. Why I am jealous of other women who have conceived. At the end of one of these sessions the answer is always the same. "So that my light, and my power can be reflected through you. So that the glory of what I have done through you shines out and gives hope to others. So that my children will see what miracles I can work".
This is a great peace to me and I hope that it is to you as well. Please remember dear hearts that it is up to God to give us life, not our determination that brings life. No matter how hard you try to conceive... it is up to God to breathe life into all of us.
"I am come that they might have life, and that they might have life more abundantly".(John 10:10).
God bless you Nikki! I weep with you, my friend, and my heart aches for you! Thank you for sharing your deep within. I know it is the hardest thing a mommy-wants-to-be can live through. Miracles do happen! I have 2 of them.
ReplyDeleteI pray that the same God who breathed life into creation before time began, continues to breathe His tender mercies into your heart!